GAH! 0.0

Wow, I haven't written in so loooong. It feels like nobody reads this thing lately, and I wouldn't either. I'm so BOOORRRIIINNNNGGGG. XD
Well, maybe I have a few interesting things going on now. Sooo, Maddy and Sav go to track, right? And Maddy is, at the moment, going out with a guy named Graham. Soo, Sav feels obliged to chaperone Maddy when she's with Graham, because she's done some pretty stupid stuff before, and then we have to deal with Maddy when the consequences come. So when Maddy waits with Graham for his parents to come pick him up after track, Sav waits with them. So one day, Sav doesn't feel so well, and runs only half of what everyone else is running. So she waits for Maddy to get back, and then for her to change. By now it's around 6. Then she waits with her for Grahams parents to come. By now it's around 6:30-6:45. So Maddy and Sav go over to unlock their bikes, and Sav's flipflop breaks. The try to fix it, which doesn't work, and then just bike home. This whole time, Sav is asking Maddy for her phone to call her mom, because she knows that she will get angry at her if she doesn't call, and Maddy has told her every time that they'll be leaving in 5 mins and she won't need to call. Surprise, surprise, Sav's mom is not called, and thinks that Sav has run away. Sav gets home and is grounded for life. Also, she has been told to stay away from Maddy, and if she's caught with her by her mom, she'll be in deep shit. Now, Sav is pissed at Maddy for getting her in trouble and so is Dani (Dani is a girl that Sav's mom called, asking if she knew where Sav was, which she didn't, and also thought Sav had run away). Of course, I am yet again stuck in the middle of the fight, where Maddy is crushed, confused, and completely hurt because she is suddenly ostrisized by two of her best friends, and Sav and Dani who are irritated by the nonchalant way that Maddy pushes away two of her best friends for her boyfriend, Graham (which has happened on many occasions) and her obvious obsession with texting him whenever possible.
I am somewhat confused as to how this came around. On multiple occasions, we have all told each other that if we are acting bitchy, mean, stupid, inconsiderate, etc, we need to be told so, and that we won't freak when we are. Now, Sav and Dani are both keeping many things from her, which I think need to be said, and Maddy is unsure about what she needs to change, and so am I. She has turned to me, being ignored by Sav and Dani, asking what she's doing wrong, and I feel completely uncomfortable trying to explain, when I'm not even sure about what needs to be said myself. I don't know what Dani and Sav specifically want Maddy to do, but it makes me very sad to hear both sides of the problem; one complaining, asking, "doesn't she get that we don't want to be around her?" and the other wondering what's going on, getting pissed, and asking what she isn't getting. I've never had the heart to explain anything to others of an evil nature, and Sav and Dani seem content to keep their thoughts to themselves around Maddy, and it's no wonder that she doesn't know what's wrong, seeing as they won't say anything. Personally, I am a little sick of what's happening, but I'm not sure what to do. I am certainly not willing to pick and choose sides; I'd never hurt Maddy or Sav that way. I couldn't do it. Especially if I left Maddy all on her lonesome. A large part of me would die, many times over. But the same would go for Sav. I've known them since second grade, and we've been like the three muskateers for the longest time. I find myself going over the past week and a half or so many times and coming up with no answers or solutions, or crappy ones anyway. What am I supposed to do? It's not supposed to be like this. We're supposed to be laughing and joking and sharing our deepest, darkest secrets at late night slumber parties, not sulking around, whispering behind each others backs and being banished from anothers presence.
Along with this conundrum, Sav has finally found someone she knows for sure that she likes. Problem is, he has a girlfriend. Unless what I heard today was true: that he broke up with his girlfriend. Which could be true, or it might not. A couple weeks ago, he'd said that he like Sav too, but had a girlfriend. Sav didn't want him to break up with his gf just to go out with her. But lately Sav says that it seems as if he doesn't like her anymore. And then he broke up with his gf. He seems more distant and depressed than ever, and now Sav is unsure of what to think. Also, Dani is going out with Andy M, but I'm not sure about how long THAT will last, judging by her last relationship, which went down the crapper because of miscommunication and simply NO communication. And then there's Maddy and Graham, who seem happy together, but I'm not so sure, seeing as she's always busy with track and I haven't REALLY seen her for such a long time.
I'm starting to feel stress build as school ends and I have to start, work on and finish all these projects, deal with problems, and watch as all the people around me play out their complicated romance stories while I sit on the sidelines. Part of me wonders where my stories went, and another part is glad not to have to deal with it. And I haven't really noticed how swamped I've felt until I wrote this. Now that I think about it, I've been feeling this comming on for a while as it built up, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for any of it, though it's happening right this moment. I haven't really been worried about Sav and Maddy not making up, but I'm not so sure anymore. If this ends up like I hope it won't, life may dramatically change for me, and I don't want it.
I guess I'd really like for some supportive comments right about now. It'd be nice. <=(

Good bye from a very confused Katie. =?